Can I get a "holler" please?

We three are living large. Highschool sweethearts. Married in the Newport Beach LDS Temple. Two kids. Taking life a day at a time!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Day by day.

I can't help but stand over her while she sleeps.
Checking on her over, and over, and over.
Making sure she's breathing.
Making sure she's warm.
Making sure she's ok.
Since the day she was born, I obsessed about those things in my mind.
But, I pushed them out and told myself I was paranoid.
Now, I fully let myself worry.
I have every right.
She's the only one I've got.
I wish I were a more carefree mom.
I look around, and see others just not worry about the "what ifs".
And likely, no tragedy will every strike them.
I wish I could go through life ignorant to all the bad things that MIGHT happen.
Hey, at least my girl is happy and loved.
Hopefully she'll never know just how truely OBSESSED I am with watching over her.


The.Marcellus.Family said...

I love you.
Its GOOD to be a caring mom.:)
Kenz has a good momma. Watch over her all you want!

Emily said...

I feel at peace knowing that my children will be with me forever no matter what happens to them. It's nice to know, isn't it? So glad Kenzi is ok. Doctors think I had a seizure when I was a teenager. I had to go in for testing for months. Absolutely no damage done. Maybe we all really do get one freebee! Oh, and even though I'm not a worry wort, I still go in almost every night to check on Josie and watch her sleep. Motherhood is great. Hope you don't have anymore scary happenings!!